Project 365

Day 365- December 31, 2010 (Friday)

2010-12-31T23:23:00.000-06:00

HAAAAPPY NEW YEARS!!

Yay. We played games all day.

It was a grand time.

Minus the crying.

That is some sparkling grape juice in my 21 year old hand.

Fancy.

I mean that's it.

This is the last post. Another entry will not be added to this blog.

It's sad. Really.

It may have something to do with my separation anxiety.

It's weird. My mind is so set to "make sure you take a picture every day. Find something quote-able...something important...to have as a title."

I will miss having the memories.

I can't remember anything. And even the smallest things...it's nice...almost comforting...to go back to those days and read. Remember.

That is something I will miss.

I'm not sure what the future of my blogging will be.

I would like to keep doing it.

Just not the Project 365 thing.

It's not something I will never do again...or...I'm not ruling it out.

But it began to be obligatory.

So if I can do it when I want...about what I want...maybe it will be better.

I don't want a blog saying: oh today I did this, then this, then this.

That's stupid.

Except when it's special. Like Atlanta. I wouldn't re-do those blogs.

But day to day stupid things...no. No more of that.

Right now...I'm still undecided.

But it's been fun. A wild ride...this blog. Gosh.

I have pictures that I would have never taken otherwise.

Pictures of people and my town that I will be so grateful I have later.

I think everyone should do this once.

At least once.

Day Three Hundred and Sixty Five.

Project 365.

Day 364- December 30, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-12-30T23:29:00.000-06:00

The day we left.

This drive was significantly longer on the way home than the way to Atlanta.

Not really...but gah it felt like it.

We almost didn't leave too.

It's complicated.

But we all ended up in vehicles with our belongings and headed home.

Plenty of fantastic music to keep me company.

I hate that I fall asleep though. It was much needed at this point.

Not a lot. Waking up to eat lunch.

Thinking way too much about music.

Wishing I could stay awake.

Tomorrow is New Years Eve!! Which is the last day of my blog.

Crazy.

Spent the rest of the night setting up my Xbox and playing Kinect with Amanda.

It was so much fun!

Now that is some crazy technology.

I have a feeling this will be a wonderful relationship.

Day Three Hundred and Sixty Four.

The Distinction Is Important.

Day 363- December 29, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-12-29T23:41:00.000-06:00

Last day of conference. But I thought it was the legit last day.

Nope. That's tomorrow. Strange. But we are leaving tomorrow morning.

So today. Mostly people went off and did their own thing.

Emily and I went the Coke museum. World of Coke. Because Atlanta is the home of Coke.

SO MANY THINGS I DIDN'T KNOW!!!

Right so there are a lot of people interested in carbonated beverages at 11am.

Stop it.

It was very very cool though. They had a lot of stuff for you to do.

Movies, interactive things, typical museum style things.

There was a room where you could watch Coke commercials from all over the world on a movie size screen.

It was very interesting!

There was an art room as well. Crazy cool.

People using coke products for art or Coke as an inspiration.

Pretty neat things in there. That's what this first photo is from.

What it's probably best known for is the taste testing room.

You can taste 7 'coke' products from all over the world.

They had Africa, Asia, Latin America, Europe, and North America.

Mixing all of those...bad idea. Some of them were decent, but I think I only found one of them that was actually good.

I feel bad for these other countries.

It was a great experience though.

Speaking of experiences...oh dinner.

So after failed attempts at food court Italian, we went to a fast food Greek place.

In a not so good part of town.

No like we were asked for money on the street right outside.

My beef burger was just fine. No baby lamb for me thanks.

We had a Bones marathon all night. Heh. Exciting.

Fun though.

The quote is from our poor navigation to dinner.

One brother was saying he doesn't do directions or decisions.

This was another brother's response. Bahaha so funny.

Maybe it's the fact that we are leaving tomorrow, but I'm quite sad today.

About leaving. About it all being over.

Yes, I am excited to spend after-Christmas time with the family, but I can't help but feel like I wished this time away.

Which I didn't want at all. Like now I think I have all the time in the world to spend with my family when I get back, but this...this conference is once in a life time.

And it's over. It's just unfortunate is all.

It was a great, great experience.

I am incredibly happy that it happened.

I got to know the people I went with a lot better.

Which was a positive thing. I'm glad.

For all of it.

Day Three Hundred and Sixty Three.

"We Made The Decision For You, You Just Resisted It. Change Is Inevitable"

Day 362- December 28, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-12-28T23:15:00.001-06:00

Tuesday. So much conference. Not on this particular day, but in general.

I mean I'm fine with it. I just woke up and realized we had all of today and all of tomorrow still.

Which, again, is fine. Good even.

Tuesday. It's really hard to keep up with what day it is.

That doesn't matter.

Kind of a lazy day. It takes us about 3 to 3.5 hours to get everybody up and ready to go. Yay.

So we got going and went to this arch thing. I don't know what it was.

I hear it looks like the one in France.

But the days are beautiful so it doesn't really matter what we do.

We scavenger hunted our way to this authentic Mexican restaurant for some lunch. Nom.

Lots of skeletons. Doing things.

Laaaate for the Region meeting. Sad. But not too late.

Loved of course.

Oh I went to a workshop today!! Yay!

It was for folks who just became alumni or are about to.

Which is actually something I am very curious about. So it was helpful. Yes.

Hard Rock for dinner. Delicious buuuuut....yeah.

I had some free time while Emily learned how to Swing Dance...so I watched D.E.B.S.

Time freaking well spent. Such a fantastic movie.

No matter how many times I watch it.

It will be nothing short of fantastic.

There was that Big Band Dance thing tonight.

We checked it out. Pretty fun.

The Swing Dance Club folks were awesome.

Day Three Hundred and Sixty Two.

"I Feel More Like Myself When I'm With You...Than I Do When I'm With Me..."

Day 361- December 27, 2010 (Monday)

2010-12-27T23:53:00.004-06:00

Well there are a lot of pictures for today, but I don't have a lot to say. Well maybe.

First day in Atlanta. I have never been here before.

It's new. It's exciting.

The weather is fantastic. It's so cold. But clear. And beautiful.

And we can just walk around the city. It's great.

Today we were big on site-seeing.

First we went to the Olympic Park.

What?! I didn't even put it together that the OLYMPICS were held in Atlanta in 1996.

So we went there. Where it was held. So freaking cool. I love the Olympics.

Flags were still there. The blue sky made for some great pictures.

Then we headed to the CNN Center. SO. COOL.

I was also completely unaware that CNN shows were filmed in Atlanta.

A couple of us took the Studio Tour.

Absolutely fascinating. We saw Tony Harris filming a show!

Learned the ins and outs of CNN production. It was just...really cool.

I loved these hours of the trip.

We ate breakfast so we were good on the lunch...which was good on my wallet.

To kick off the actual conference bit, we had our first Region meeting.

This. This I loved.

Our region is great. Very energetic. Very sweet. It was a fantastic atmosphere.

I will be looking forward to this time every day.

Oh yes. We had Opening Ceremonies tonight. Unexpectedly fantastic.

Well not that I expected it wouldn't be awesome. I just didn't expect it to be such a party.

No like...we had glowing things and a percussion group...and some Black Eyed Peas blaring.

It was pretty great.

There were some moving speeches made. It really set the tone for the rest of conference.

Then we had dinner at this place called The Vortex.

Oh gosh.

It was really delicious. But a friend...a brother...a

brother-friend got this burger called "Double Bypass Burger"

Shoot.

It was a half pound of meat, 2 fried eggs, 6 pieces of cheese, 8 pieces of bacon, and two grilled cheese sandwiches serving as a pseudo-bun.

It was ridiculous. But he ate it. Quickly.

Pretty great.

Theeeen we rode the MARTA!!! My first underground transportation!!

This was an exciting moment. It was really fun actually.

Pretty stressful though. I could get used to it.

Yay this day.

Ended with hanging with the brothas until we all fell asleep.

Day Three Hundred and Sixty One.

700 Mile Vortex.

Day 360- December 26, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-12-26T23:13:00.001-06:00

So it's the day after Christmas. I stayed up super late last night. I didn't want Christmas to end.

I didn't want to skip right to the part where I had to leave everyone so soon.

But I was trying to think better of it. I was looking forward to the trip. I really was.

I just needed it to start. So I could quit thinking about everything else.

And we left. In the AM. Barely. But it was morning.

I was taking everything in the whole way there.

Well I slept some too.

But it was really interesting to go through all those big cities and different states.

This picture was taken in Memphis. Where we turned around.

It was skanky.

But made for an aesthetically pleasing photo.

So we finally made it Atlanta around 11pm their time. Different time zone. Weird.

So it was about a 12 hour trip.

The hotel. Hyatt. It. Is. Beautiful.

Wow. It immediately knocked the breath out of me though.

Took me straight back to softball days. Tournaments.

Aaaaand that's something I can't get into right now. Softball.

But it was really awesome to be greeted by hundreds of folks wearing those letters.

That moment made me the most excited for the rest of the conference.

After some exploring and situating, it was time to hit the hay and get ready.

No one is really sure what the plans are. Play it by ear. But it will be fun.

It will be a good experience.

Also. I discovered it is not a wise decision to listen to a song with headphones after "Heavy In Your Arms" by Florence + The Machine.

It will just be a disappointing experience. What a fantastic song.

Day Three Hundred and Sixty.

Are You Strong Enough To Stand...Protecting Both Your Heart And Mine?...

Day 359- December 25, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-12-25T23:47:00.002-06:00

I have so many fantastic pictures that could be for today! So. Much. Family.

This was the first one we took. While asleep. So it wins.

Listen. Today was great. I really wish my sister could have done the family thing with me, but it was still fun.

I love all of my families!

And I got to spend some time with Kelly! Aww.

I love giving presents to folks!

All that planning was worth it today when everyone opened their gifts!

I love everybody!!

I'm procrastinating packing now.

Getting up in 5 hours. Leaving for Atlanta in the morning.

It will be fun, I know it will be.

I'm just sad to have to leave my family so soon.

But there is a lot of time to spend together when I get back.

I know it will be fun.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

I LOVE EVERYONE!!

Day Three Hundred and Fifty Nine.

"Well Santa Knows Everything...I ALREADY SAID THAT!!"--dad

Day 358- December 24, 2010 (Friday)

2010-12-24T23:42:00.000-06:00

AHHHH!!! Wake up. Meet Kelly. Lunch. Aunt Karen's. Posada. LOVE. Choir loft. Communion.

"We really running low on Jesus tonight."

Manger picture. Red Lobster. Aunt Karen's part dos. Nestor the Christmas donkey...awful. Presents. BED!!!

Jam packed day. It was a lot of fun.

Our manger picture is a little smaller this year.

We look like a musical group though. Win.

A grand day indeed. Merry Christmas Eve!!!

Day Three Hundred and Fifty Eight.

I Feel Like That Is Aimed At Me.

Day 357- December 23, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-12-23T23:24:00.001-06:00

Still prepping for Christmas!! I'm going to be so sad when it's over.

I love the anticipation. So much.

So we decided to do Christmas things with mom today.

But had to wait until Amanda got off work. Which was fine.

Played Wii with Aunt Karen, Bianca, and Mom all day.

It was hilarious!! So much fun.

We painted these lovely little Christmas things...for about 4 hours.

So precious though!

Worth it.

Also. We watched Date Night. LOVE.

"Color Wheel UGH!!!!" Haha I say that all the time.

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve!!!

Let the 48 hours of family time begin!

I'm so pumped!!

Day Three Hundred and Fifty Seven.

Shut Up, Human.

Day 356- December 22, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-12-22T23:22:00.002-06:00

Today doesn't even feel like today.

A lovely wake up by my favorite bunny. Ness.

Started early this morning. Okay WalMart. Such a pain in my rear. They agreed. Free merchandise hah.

Ran around with dad.

Lunch with him and his wife. Fun.

Shopping. Three days before Christmas. Why?...

It had to be done. But I am completely done now. I don't have anything else to buy. I don't have anything else to wrap.

Watched Criminal Minds. Great show.

Yeah so just a heck of a lot of TV.

Going to the bed soon. Took this picture by accident.

Didn't even know I had it. But I kind of like it so. Yeah.

Okay no. I got some new headphones today.

Over the head-headphones. Old school.

But they have a mic in them.

Wow they are so fantastic!

I am completely in love with them.

Alright time for some Solitary.

Day Three Hundred and Fifty Six.

Only Three Sleeps Until Christmas.

Day 355- December 21, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-12-21T23:09:00.000-06:00

Today was a busy day.

I mean I didn't go to bed until after 4am. So I didn't get up until noon. But I know I was really busy.

Did some running around with dad.

Headed out to spend Christmas time with Kelly's family.

And got this sweet hat!! And rockin' gloves.

And other wonderful stocking things.

It was all really sweet.

Mmm and delicious dinner.

A good night.

Wrapped more presents. I realized today that Amanda has not wrapped a single Christmas present.

I don't know how that's going to work out.

Me and dad are wrapping fiends.

Okay he and I planned to watch holiday movies tonight.

So I put in Santa Paws. He chose this one. It is a great choice.

He was asleep and snoring within 5 minutes.

C'mon! So I watched it by myself. Fine.

Last night at dad's before Christmas. It's really sad.

So I'm sleeping with my Christmas tree on tonight.

Day Three Hundred and Fifty Five.

"Orange Juice Makes Me Really Hyper...I Think It's All The Vitamins"

Day 354- December 20, 2010 (Monday)

2010-12-20T23:53:00.000-06:00

YAY!!! DONE APPLYING TO GRAD SCHOOLS!!!

4 of them! Crazy!

So pumped!! What a relief.

Gah.

Spent the day with Kelly. Which was fun. I haven't seen her in forever.

Back doing what we do best.

School things at a table for an excessive number of hours.

I missed it.

So the picture is the first one I applied to.

Penn State.

It was weird for that to come up. That I applied to graduate school.

Anyways. Wrapped a lot of presents.

I feel like I'm on drugs. I have so few school commitments! I love it.

Just hanging out. Wrapping presents.

Playing with the puppy.

This is what Christmas Break was like before college.

Day Three Hundred and Fifty Four.

The Carousel.

Day 353- December 19, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-12-19T23:29:00.000-06:00

Sad. We had to leave Branson today. But first we did some fun things.

Dinner at a country restaurant. Heh.

Then straight to the 5 and 10. Yes. The five and ten.

Don't let old folks fool you into thinking it's called the five and dime.

Dad was being generous. Thought we could buy a present or two for people. He gave us $10 each.

Little did he know...we were done buying gifts.

So we bought guns. Fake guns.

Mine shoots window sticking bullets.

Fantastic. Amanda's is just pink. With a pony.

Dad was thrilled this is what we spent his money on.

That makes three of us.

Starbucks, 2 games of laser tag, and an outlet mall later...and we were headed home.

It was a packed morning. We all slept on the way home.

Except dad. He drove.

Everyone crashed when we got home.

Ugh. Doing grad school apps all day tomorrow.

Looking forward to being done with them!

Day Three Hundred and Fifty Three.

But Keep Your Eyes...Wide Open...

Day 352- December 18, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-12-18T23:03:00.000-06:00

Happy Birthday Ma!

Saturday was a good day! It's so nice to not have to write a grade determining paper. Or have exams weighing on my mind.

I mean yeah, I have to to these applications and write a couple papers. But I have a little bit of time.

Okay. First of all. We went to the dinosaur museum. Which was awesome.

Dinosaur's are large.

Then. The haunted asylum. Oh god.

First of all, we couldn't go. Alone. We tried.

We couldn't.

So we waited for a group. And followed them.

We screamed. An incredible amount.

We ran into the boy we went with. Amanda was pulling up the rear. So the workers had fun with her.

It was a really good attraction though. Really good.

We dug for fossils. That ended with Amanda saying, "I'm not playing paleontologist with you anymore!!" Heh.

Then we went to pizza buffet dinner. Surprisingly delicious.

SHOW TIME. HAYGOODS!!!!

Never a disappointing experience. I love them so much. What great performers.

Oh the night was not over.

Amanda, Dad, and myself went to a 5D thing...eh.

Then a mirror maze. Mind trip.

That was fun.

Played cards with dad until about 2am. I'm going to try to make Amanda make a compilation of the quotes from those 2 hours.

Day Three Hundred and Fifty Two.

Donder and Dickson.

Dad's version of Donner and Blitzen.

Day 351- December 17, 2010 (Friday)

2010-12-17T23:46:00.000-06:00

Yay. Branson.

We even left less than 2 hours late.

So we drove. And I was so pumped to listen to music the whole way.

I stayed up late getting new music.

Downfall...I stayed up really late.

So I was exhausted, fought sleep...and lost.

Disappointing.

What wasn't disappointing was the state of Missouri.

Condo yay. But then we went to Silver Dollar City.

It was cold. Comfortably cold though.

A good cold.

Lots of bundled children. Precious.

We were gingerfolk. It was awesome.

I started applying for Grad Schools.

Shoot me.

I also watched Criminal Minds for the first time.

It was absolutely terrifying. But I couldn't quit watching.

It was really good. But terrifying.

It was a really great day. This weekend will be fantastic, I know it.

Day Three Hundred and Fifty One.

100.

Day 350- December 16, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-12-16T23:37:00.000-06:00

Today. Today was supposed to be grad school application day.

It was. For a couple of hours.

Having a small dog laying on my hands impedes the process only slightly.

But we're best friends so it was alright.

The picture is her. Centimeters from my face.

I had a cracker in my mouth. Super weird.

Early b-day for the mother.

Then to dad's house for his early Christmas present.

Heh. His is for Branson. And mom's was because we will be in Branson for her birthday.

Makes sense.

Yeah mostly spent the day alone.

Now I am spending my hours last minute searching for life changing music.

This is something you can't make happen. I've discovered.

It has to come to you. Which is a time consuming process.

So I have some new songs...but none of them are completely earth shattering.

Pumped for the family vacation.

I hope everyone gets along...gah.

Day Three Hundred and Fifty.

Collecting the Differences.

Day 349- December 15, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-12-15T23:12:00.001-06:00

Yay. Amanda locked my phone.

It originally said 5 minutes.

She said she kept trying and it kept increasing the lock time.

I was in the living room.

It does look pretty with the trees in the background though.

Eventually I will have to change that. The background.

It's more than a little masochistic.

So yes. I'm home. Barely made the drive.

Actually fell asleep a couple of times.

It was terrifying.

Seriously.

I knew it was insanely dangerous and I could be injured.

And I still couldn't stay awake.

Turned the music up, rolled the window down, there was pinching involved.

It was a serious issue.

Oh Grad Schools.

Working on applying for those tonight and tomorrow.

Joy. I hate having things weighing on me, so the sooner the better.

And they are due soon so...

Getting to bed at a decent hour.

I have been awake for 8 times the hours that I slept.

Let's do some Math.

If you got the suggested hours of sleep, 8, that would be equivalent to you staying up for 64 subsequent hours.

That's almost 3 days. Of being awake. In a row.

So that's how I feel.

Like I got hit by a bus.

Day Three Hundred and Forty Nine.

Gravity's Pulling...You're Still Holding My Heart.

Day 348- December 14, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-12-14T23:00:00.002-06:00

So this is it.

Last night in Fayetteville for a while.

It was...unique.

Daytime was normal.

Got to have lunch with a dear friend. Whom I love.

Sold my books back. Okay this was really sad for me.

Not epidemiology. But the other two for sure.

I'm very attached to them.

Probably because I had to read over 400 pages in each of them.

I had one or both of them with

me literally at all times.

There was a bond. Even if it was forced.

Took a stroll around campus

to look at the Christmas lights.

Which are located exclusively on Old Main. Good.

Cleaned a little...packed a lot.

Visited another friend.

And we went...driving. Driving around.

With bread and gatorade.

Heh. She's funny.

Didn't get to bed until 6am. Good.

Driving on 2 hours of sleep. Can't wait.

It's a good thing I have fantastic taste in music.

Day Three Hundred and Forty Eight.

That's All It Is, But That's All I Needed.

Day 347- December 13, 2010 (Monday)

2010-12-13T23:10:00.000-06:00

I can't get my days right to save my life.

I've heard it's Monday.

After I broke an important piece of lab equipment, I decided to give it another go when it was fixed today.

Believe it or not, I have managed to screw that up as well.

I thought it looked really weird when I left, but I know absolutely nothing about the engineering of this machine.

I don't get how it works. I only know what I've been told...and can quickly write down.

So there is supposed to be a nice S-shaped graph on the screen.

Or something. Anything.

Sigh. This was a little more than disheartening at 8:30pm.

I didn't attempt any more.

Sent an email. Hopefully I can figure it out and really get it going tomorrow.

Listen. I am so incredibly obsessed with Rizzoli and Isles.

Mostly Rizzoli. Heh. No but the show is spectacular. For so many reasons.

That I will sound crazy describing. So I won't. Outloud.

Anyways. Just waiting on my grades mostly.

Decided I'm leaving Wednesday morning for sure.

Hope things happen by then.

Oh gosh. I went back to the HPER today.

First time in about 2 months. My knee and my foot are still quite shaky.

I was nervous. But. Wow.

It felt so great. I really honestly think I am happier. Just from working out.

One day.

Definitely will be going back tomorrow.

Wow. There are less than 20 days left in the year. Weird.

Day Three Hundred and Forty Seven.

Our Hearts...They Beat And Break.

Day 346- December 12, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-12-12T23:21:00.002-06:00

Oh today.

Woke up at 2pm. Great.

I guess I needed it.

I knew I wasn't going to be able to fall back asleep tonight though.

It's 4:43am right now.

And I'm not tired.

Just cold. It's so cold.

Hosted a little Rizzoli and Isles Marathon.

It was a private marathon.

So good. And to think I almost deleted them all.

So glad I didn't.

I tried not to think about anything today.

Specifically.

It was hard though. But I was busy so it wasn't so much of a problem as it was when I was studying.

I blogged for TWENTY EIGHT days today!!!!

I had to do 16 one day in November...and said I would never let it get that bad again.

I guess I lied.

That's how much school kicked my butt this past month.

So now. I'm all caught up.

Tomorrow will consist of cleaning, packing, emailing, and picking up transcripts.

I don't know when I will be going home.

Waiting for all of my projects to be returned and grades to go up.

Until then. Brr.

Day Three Hundred and Forty Six.

A Series Of Reciprocating Steps.

Day 345- December 11, 2010 (Satuday)

2010-12-11T23:14:00.000-06:00

My days are so screwed up.

I can't believe it's Saturday.

It feels like the middle of the week.

Super weird.

Also.

I'M DONE!!!! Took my last exam at 4pm.

Again...it was pitch black.

It's really startling.

Like it's normally high afternoon when I walk out of that class.

I forgot it was late. I had to step back for a second.

I'm so excited!!!

But it's a weird feeling.

I feel like I should take my leisure things to the library.

Just to be there.

It's where I'm supposed to be.

I feel like my life is lacking structure already.

I spent 7 hours there this morning and I still feel like I need it.

It will definitely take some getting used to.

The picture is me. Relaxing. Watching Grey's Anatomy.

Yay.

Just watched TV for hours. Ate pizza.

Didn't do any homework. It was nice.

I fell asleep at midnight. Ha.

Wait until you see what time I woke up.

I should have been celebrating.

But I was so exhausted. Sleep is my celebration.

Day Three Hundred and Forty Five.

A Reaction To What We All Know Inside.

Day 344- December 10, 2010 (Friday)

2010-12-10T23:03:00.000-06:00

Woooooo. Okay. Made it through one exam.

Freaking. Barely.

I had to make a 98.5%

I got this! No not really. At all.

I spent over 45 hours studying for this one test. Not counting lecture.

So there's that.

It wasn't for lack of trying.

It's up in the air.

It was incredibly depressing that after my exam that ended at 6pm...it was pitch black...I had to hurry back to the library to cram for my cumulative Psych Statistics final.

*whimpers*

It's exhausting.

It's all exhausting. I'm so exhausted.

Still distracted. Still would just rather sit at the table.

Still replaying the song.

Still makes me sick.

One more day. Of finals.

An infinite amount of time for...yeah.

Day Three Hundred and Forty Four.

This Thing Between My Lungs...Is Making Me So Tired.

Day 343- December 09, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-12-09T23:58:00.000-06:00

With all the excitement that is these days, my picture is...my notecard for my Statistics final.

Great.

No. Lame.

I don't care.

Wow. I have never been so distracted.

In. My. Life.

It sucks.

I can't focus on studying. I can't keep food down.

I can't think of anything.

Anything else.

I can't expect anything. But for some reason I am.

Maybe it's the masochism.

This will go on for a while. I can promise that.

First exam tomorrow.

Day Three Hundred and Forty Three.

I'm Searching...Desperate.

Day 342- December 08, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-12-08T23:51:00.000-06:00

Happy Dead Day!!

The library was anything but dead.

People have exams tomorrow after all.

Marinna. Marinna is a lovely addition to the study group.

So hilarious.

The picture is of the indoor/outdoor swimming pool/hot tub that we will own.

For a song. About Sam's Club.

It's brilliant really.

Funny kid. Funny kid.

I'm going to be sick. My exam is in a day and a half.

That's not why.

Nor will you find that answer here.

3:30pm. Wow. Didn't realize how appropriate that was until this moment.

5 days later.

Shaking less now.

I guess. No, not really.

Sinking is going WAY better than the swimming.

Day Three Hundred and Forty Two.

My Heart Stood Still...So Did Time And Space.

Day 341- December 07, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-12-07T23:45:00.000-06:00

Today was a dull day.

See photo.

I was actually comparing my camera's quality to Kelly's.

Separate, they don't really mean a lot.

That's how I feel.

I feel like I'm just going through the motions.

Today...the feeling was heightened.

Ironically that resulted in less feeling.

Getting that numb feeling back.

I mean, I don't really think it ever went away.

There were a lot of events in a row...that kept me up.

Above it.

Those are gone now.

Classes are over. Tomorrow is dead day.

Exams Friday and Saturday.

Trying to get through this.

I think all my titles will be incredibly appropriate for the next few weeks.

I will probably say it from time to time...but this goes for those next two weeks.

Day Three Hundred and Forty One.

Searching For Signs Of The Aftermath.

Day 340- December 06, 2010 (Monday)

2010-12-06T23:33:00.000-06:00

Sigh. This was it.

Turned in my paper. Took back the book.

Surreal.

I don't really feel like blogging.

The picture is cool.

I have spent several days looking out this window...shaking.

Today was no exception.

The scenery changed a little bit in the last month.

Thought it was a cool picture.

Shaking or not.

It was fine. It was good.

And now it's over.

Something I'm not going to deal with right now.

I have exams to worry about first.

Day Three Hundred and Forty.

Steady Hands Just Take The Wheel.

Every Glance Is Killing Me.

Could not be more appropriate.

Day 339- December 05, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-12-05T23:22:00.001-06:00

What. A. Day.

It's crunch time.

Last APO meeting. That was quite sad.

Went to T-bell with my little, Marinna.

Love her.

We sneakily ate our fast food, illegally, in the library.

She's a funny kid.

I finished my 15 page paper today. Fiiiinally.

It's like a part of who I am.

It will be really weird to not work on it.

I finished it at like 3am. So I will wait until the morning to turn it in. Hah.

A little anxious about tomorrow.

We'll see how it goes.

I turned in my last library book today.

So sad. I had more than one book checked out for all of my classes except one.

Too much. Too much.

Glad to have that weight lifted off me. Keeping up with the library's books.

The largest weight. A single book. Heavier than the other 10 combined. Will be lifted tomorrow.

Again...it's all so bitter sweet.

Day Three Hundred and Thirty Nine.

Running Out Of Time.

Running Out Of Breath.

Day 338- December 04, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-12-04T23:12:00.000-06:00

Continued my 'let's do nothing all day' trend today.

Nothing school related anyways.

Went to track down my UPS packages...to no avail.

Went to dinner and then did Christmas things.

Made and decorated cookies, set up the tree, and made an ornament. Well...decorated an ornament.

It was fun.

Tomorrow...back to the grind.

But. For tonight, it was fun.

Day Three Hundred and Thirty Eight.

Comply Mindlessly.

Day 337- December 03, 2010 (Friday)

2010-12-03T23:04:00.000-06:00

Well...since I don't have a lot of obligations until my exams (except that 15 page paper heh), I decided to take a break tonight.

I hung out with my friends. Until the wee hours of the morning.

And it was fantastic.

Some drama..for sure. It will blow over.

I'm confident.

And I love ferret. The picture is Juan (a laaaady cat) and ferret.

Sweet animals.

I don't remember the day. I didn't have any class...so I just tried to get things done.

Yaaaay Friiiiday.

And beverges I needed.

Day Three Hundred and Thirty Seven.

Insulation From Reality.

Day 336- December 02, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-12-02T23:48:00.000-06:00

Wooooo.

Hope this project is done. Because it's due today.

It is about 20 pages long. Legit.

We did end up being in the 6 groups that presented.

I'm glad really.

Don't have to worry about it next week.

It went well enough.

Today...I saw this door.

It's festive. Props to them.

Just wrapping up this paper and getting ready for my exams.

Joy.

Day Three Hundred and Thirty Six.

Hard Resets.

Day 335- December 01, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-12-01T23:42:00.000-06:00

This was the highlight of my day for sure.

So funny. We had class at this coffee shop.

It was bitter sweet. The entire hour and a half.

Some serious talk. Some not.

All...wonderful. It was just great. I am going to miss everyone so much.

I really got attached to these people.

I just wanted to stay there forever.

I was really upset when people had to start leaving.

It was a long sad walk back up to campus.

This paper will be the death of me, but...I would write a 15 page paper every week if it could just stay like this.

I know it's unreasonable. But...well...it's unreasonable.

Nothing else deserves to be written about.

Every part of today's entry will be about this class.

All of it.

Bye blog.

Day Three Hundred and Thirty Five.

It's Been Minutes. It's Been Days...

It's Been All I Will Remember...

Day 334- November 30, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-11-30T23:20:00.000-06:00

I'm quite attached to this month.

I'm not sure why.

November. It's a good month.

Fall. Winter. Either one.

It was a good month this year too.

In my own way.

It definitely wasn't academically.

Sort of.

Ha my blog is becoming so cryptic.

Don't worry...I won't remember what it means later anyways.

So my calendar. There it is. Those are just the main things.

Things that were due.

Something almost everyday.

I thrive in that environment though.

I completely drive myself crazy when I don't have anything to do.

So. Library is still open all the time. Love.

Just still working on my project. Yay.

Day Three Hundred and Thirty Four.

Later On...If It Turns To Chaos.

Day 333- November 29, 2010 (Monday)

2010-11-29T23:07:00.002-06:00

It's dwindling. My time in my classes.

I didn't think I was going to be very invested in any of them.

I mean normally invested. Not over the top.

When they all required me to do a heck of a lot of work...I kinda fell in love.

I really love them all.

I mean there is a rank for sure.

One that I think is pretty obvious. But I do like them all.

Today was my last Ecology lecture. Which okay is good.

I don't need to add any more material to what I need to know for the dang final.

It will already be the death of me.

Got all 60 participants today. With Kelly as my partner...not my class partner.

She thinks her name should go on the paper.

We watched the episode of South Park in class that is my topic for my colloquium.

It was weiiiird. Like I already dissected it and watched it dozens of times.

I was worried people were going to have better opinions.

Thaaaat's not what I wanted.

But we get off on so many tangents in that class.

My teacher rightfully put it: "We will start off on something relevant...but we'll inevitably end up talking about green beans."

Bahaha. Love.

In all seriousness.

Oh. 'We'...I would say 'they' for sure...decided that Wednesday should be our last class.

What the heck?! I'm so upset. It was literally like being punched in the stomach.

I was trying to emotionally prepare myself for the last class being in a week.

Not in two days. It's a feeling I can't explain. No I can. But I won't.

Day Three Hundred and Thirty Three.

Please Don't Try So Hard To Say Goodbye.

Day 332- November 28, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-11-28T23:47:00.001-06:00

I hate goodbyes. So much.

I blame it on the Borderline Personality Disorder.

I hate leaving people more than anything.

I get so attached.

It's my family. I know I will see them again.

And I know it will be soon.

It should be okay.

This picture makes it look like you can really see where the world curves.

Pretty cool.

These next two weeks are gonna suuuuuck.

So much to do to wrap up these class and prepare for finals.

Back to the library.

I missed it. I did.

I got absolutely nothing done all break. It was nice.

But I have got to get back into things.

Today...today is the first day that the library is open TWENTY FOUR HOURS A DAY!!!!

You have no idea how excited I am.

This is not good for my sleep. I care very little.

I have been at the library until it closed for at least the past 3-4 weeks.

So. Extended hours. Will be nice.

Realized I have a 'group' project in Psych Stat due on Thursday. As well as the class presentation. Crap.

Have to get started on that.

Several weeks ago.

But really urgently tonight.

Luckily I don't have anything due until then. So that's what I will be focussing on.

Every minute of every day.

While still treading water in all my other classes. Sigh.

Day Three Hundred and Thirty Two.

We're Tipping The Scale.

Day 331- November 27, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-11-27T23:25:00.002-06:00

IT'S GAME DAY!!!!

About 12 hours of my day was devoted to getting to, watching, getting home from, and talking about the game.

WOW. It was so fantastic!!!

I'm so glad Mary told me to get a ticket!

It was a lot of fun to go with her as well.

Sooo...we beat LSU!! And I'm pretty sure we're going to the Sugar Bowl!!!

Just need Auburn to hold up their end of the bargain with South Carolina next weekend.

The atmosphere was indescribable. So awesome!

I hope I can remember it.

People were actual throwing sugar at the end of the game.

Such a good time.

I thought I would see more people that I know. Person.

That didn't make sense. But I did. I looked anyways.

Not a lot else for the day.

Game. And no homework.

Day Three Hundred and Thirty One.

"Finding Truth Is Your Own Problem"

Day 330- November 26, 2010 (Friday)

2010-11-26T23:56:00.000-06:00

Happy day after Thanksgiving!

Yay. Yeah whatever.

Today was kind of depressing.

It's the last real day of the break.

Like I would get the weekend off anyways.

Enough negativity.

Today was a good day.

Amanda and I were watching Ramona and Beezus with my small cousin.

But Manda had to work so we didn't get to finish it.

It is an incredibly hilarious movie!!

So at about 12:15am we decided to go get it from the store.

We got to WalMart. Aaaaand realized it was the start of

Black Friday.

So we stood in line for at least an hour. To buy a children's movie.

Worth it? I'd say. Yes.

So into the day time:

Happy Birthday to JAMB!!

She's 22 now. Old. Kidding. Only kidding.

So we went bowling. And to dinner.

It really was a lot of fun!

I suck at bowling. Great.

But I love it for some reason.

Day Three Hundred and Thirty.

"Thank You For Your Feedback"...no it really is a hilarious movie!!!

Day 329- November 25, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-11-25T23:47:00.001-06:00

Oh Thanksgiving.

I'm thankful for DVR. Otherwise I would have missed half an hour of the parade!!

It was a really great day!!

I got to see so many family members!

I love family. Love. So much.

It was oddly muggy and warm.

Not a fan.

Amanda still has a concussion. Great.

Crazy crazy family. 42 of us there.

Mom's side first. That's where the pics are from.

First is me and baby cousin. Cousin's baby. Heh.

The other is all of my cousins!!

Well..sans two. But that's most of them.

It's crazy. So many of us are never in one picture. It's hard to describe.

Like these are the kids that I have grown up with...all in one picture!

My cousins! I just love them all.

Then headed to dad's side's gathering.

It was a grand time as well. Little bit low key.

We played card games. Which I love.

HAAAAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!

Day Three Hundred and Twenty Nine.

Grandma The Pirate Has Her Wine.

Barely Escaped Being Run Over By The Aunt.

Mouths Are Full.

Greetings Like We Haven't Seen Each Other In Years.

Yep...It's Thanksgiving.

Day 328- November 24, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-11-24T23:30:00.000-06:00

Lalala. This will be a short one today.

I did nothing. And was surprisingly fine with it.

I did try to do homework with my mom.

But on the couch, with a TV tray, and a small puppy in my lap...it's just not the right environment for me.

This picture...well...it was my GOAL for the day.

It didn't happen. For about 5 more days.

Bummed around the house all day with the pup and ma...until Manda came home. Then she watched TV with us.

Ha. Eventful.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving!!!

You know what that means...PARADE!!!

And quality family time of course.

Day Three Hundred and Twenty Eight.

This Whole Thing Is One Colossal Fog Cue.

Day 327- November 23, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-11-23T23:11:00.000-06:00

Ahhhhh. That's a sigh. Of relief.

I'm done!! Three days off!

So pumped.

The world looked a little brighter when I walked out of my Statistics test, hence the picture.

It's beautiful. I didn't edit it at all. I love this precious little picture.

Had lunch with my dear friend Brooke today.

She's good company.

Headed for home. It was pretty late.

And I was running on zero sleep.

I had to call my dad several times so I didn't fall asleep.

I didn't tell him that though.

No need to worry him that much.

Car rides are so peaeful though.

Especially in the dark.

It's just me and my music. As long as I can remain conscious.

So the picture on the left is what I...left.

The picture on the right is what I came home to.

So precious. She was so happy to see me. And I her.

It was good to see my mom and sister as well!!

I missed everyone a lot.

This is going to be a great 5 days.

I know it will go by way too fast.

Day Three Hundred and Twenty Seven.

"I Feel Like I'm Trying To Climb A Mountain."--Brooke. On eating her Papa John's Breadsticks.

Day 326- November 22, 2010 (Monday)

2010-11-22T23:03:00.000-06:00

Bahaha. I love this photo.

Coffee shop on campus.

Clever. Very clever.

Peer Evals went better than expected.

Some funny times. Sigh.

Just makes the ending of this class even harder.

School. Library. Library.

Test tomorrow. Then I'm done. For a few days I don't have anything due.

I can't even fathom what that will be like.

It kind of stresses me out.

Heh.

If you knew me, this wouldn't surprise you.

Day Three Hundred and Twenty Six.

Perfectly Consistent.

Day 325- November 21, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-11-21T23:47:00.000-06:00

Oh how I missed the library.

I love it.

Okay so. Epidemiology paper is due tomorrow.

Finished that. Barely. It's done.

Peer Eval Workshop tomorrow.

Bleh. I might throw up.

I know it will be helpful. I know it will be incredibly helpful.

But I think it's justified to dread it all the same.

The picture looks cold.

It's just not cold here yet.

It's almost December and it's not cold.

Kiiiiinda annoying. Just saying.

So. Making it through the days.

Two more until Thanksgiving Break!!

It's hard though. The last thing I want to do is wish the semester away.

I like it.

Just not all these huge things that are due at the same time...and yet take up 4 weeks.

It's like magic how that works.

Day Three Hundred and Twenty Five.

Close Your Eyes. Clear Your Heart.

Day 324- November 20, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-11-20T23:39:00.000-06:00

Apparently this is the only picture I took today.

It was our hotel.

Meetings all day.

Informative. Unifying.

I liked it.

Meeting people from the section was cool.

Didn't stay for dinner. Hit the road early.

More time for fantastic music listening.

Not enough time in the day. For music.

Not enough time.

Was so exhausted. Passed on the homework for the night. Library was closed by the time I got home anyways.

I'm not ready for it to be over.

I'm extremely glad it happened though.

It was imperative.

Day Three Hundred and Twenty Four.

"I Don't Want To Play Games With Plain White Bread."--Kendall. Good.

Day 323- November 19, 2010 (Friday)

2010-11-19T23:19:00.000-06:00

Pittsburg bound. Kansas.

I thought it was a lot further away than it was.

About a 3 hour drive.

So much time for music.

It was incredibly fantastic.

As was this day.

Got situated in our fancy hotel. Motel. Heh.

It was called "Extra Inn"

Quaint.

Ate separate dinners. Jerks.

Headed to the campus to check in.

That's where we found the gorilla.

Back to the hotel.

I went with a lot of people that I didn't know that well.

I know a lot more now.

That's good. I'm really glad. Friday was fun.

Saturday will be business.

It was an experience I would not trade for anything.

I loved it.

That's the crew that went.

Good times.

Lot's of funny things. I have a quote book.

It's extensive and every quote requires an explanation.

So I will keep that for now.

Day Three Hundred and Twenty Three.

Tilt.

Day 322- November 18, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-11-18T23:35:00.002-06:00

Late night. Early morning.

Went with Mare to the ticket office to get LSU tickets.

If it weren't for her, I'm almost positive I wouldn't have got it.

I will happy I did in 9 days.

So that happened in the eighth hour.My presentation was at 11.

I was in the first group.

So there were no expectations.

Just like I like it.

Working on my Epidemiology Paper now.

Because it's due Monday.

And I'm leaving for Pittsburg, Kansas TOMORROW!!!

Kinda pumped for the break.

Day Three Hundred and Twenty Two.

"Painting With A Big Brush."

Day 321- November 17, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-11-17T23:27:00.000-06:00

Still just-a workin' on this paper.

Somehow I managed to work on it almost all the way until class. Whoops.

I think I was just procrastinating.

Class was fine.

Because we didn't have the workshop.

That's Monday. Until then...I will dread it.

Tomorrow is my Human Disease presentation.

I was laughing yesterday...about how ridiculous it was how little I know about this topic. And I present tomorrow.

So...poster was made until like 4am.

Haven't practiced it.

Hope I know it well enough to present.

Day Three Hundred and Twenty One.

"So. We're Looking For A Mouse."

Day 320- November 16, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-11-16T23:04:00.000-06:00

Aww Union. From the library.

This was taken in the only break I gave myself all day.

Let's see...what is due tomorrow?

There's always something.

Tomorrow is...ah. My 15 page draft for my colloquium.

Great. Good.

So...been working on that.

A giant chunk was done...but...there is still a heck of a lot to go.

I just want it to be good...since 2 other people will be reading it, judging it, then talking to me personally about it.

So yes. Back to library-ing.

Day Three Hundred and Twenty.

Stayed Broken.

Day 319- November 15, 2010 (Monday)

2010-11-15T23:32:00.002-06:00

I'm so screwed.

Human Disease. Chronic Disease section.

Would feel a tiny bit better if I didn't miss a day of class.

And hence 25% of the material. Great.

I need to make better than a 75% on this test.

And that would be me getting a 100% on the days that I was there. Which is so impossible in this class.

It's so frustrating.

So yes. I have to do very well.

And I'm trying.

But it's hard.

Oh if you could only see my calendar for this week.

It sucks.

I'm still spending my entire life in the library.

I leave for class, but right after--I'm back.

It's home. My apartment is home away from home.

I think sleep will be secondary...until exams are over.

So far away...but I don't see my load lightening at all.

Oh also. Communications Colloq. was cancelled today.

4/7 people all independently decided to not show up on the same day.

LISTEN PEOPLE!!! We only have 4 more classes left now!

Show up please!! I'm not trying to end this any sooner than it will end itself.

Day Three Hundred and Nineteen.

That We Have To Protect. Wherever It Is.

Day 318- November 14, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-11-14T23:47:00.000-06:00

I think I have decided to stop sleeping.

Like I really really don't have time for it.

It's a strange feeling.

So we'll see how that goes tonight.

Problem is...I stop being productive around 3:30am...and end up just watching TV.

Which defeats the purpose.

I am so incredibly stressed out.

I can't believe the amount of stuff I have to do.

My time line was a fail.

It said I would be done about 2 weeks ago.

Nope.

Still mostly working on my paper.

I have something huge every single day, so I am really just taking one day at a time.

That's all I can do at this point.

There is no room to work ahead.

I will be lucky if I can just keep up.

The presidential princess dinner was tonight.

It was wonderful.

I put my teacher's book in a Ziploc bag.

It will remain there when I'm not using it.

I can't take the added stress of possibly screwing it up.

Day Three Hundred and Eighteen.

Can So Easily Become A Tragedy.

Day 317- November 13, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-11-13T23:40:00.001-06:00

What a busy day!

Wow.

So woke up late.

No time to do homework.

Got ready for the fam.

Went out to eat.

Nom.

We all went our separate ways for the game.

It is really upsetting.

I was quite sad.

The last of a lot of things in that section.

I can't think about it. It makes me very sad.

We did get to go to the front row! Fantastic!

Close up of all the mascots!

Got my picture taken with Boss Hog!!!

And fireworks to end the night.

It was a great time. I'm glad I went.

After party was a grand time as well.

Day Three Hundred and Sixteen.

On Your Toes Razorbacks, To The Finish.

Carry On With All Your Might.

Day 316- November 12, 2010 (Friday)

2010-11-12T23:35:00.000-06:00

My last weekend in Fayetteville for a while.

So I spent it doing homework until about 2am.

Really it couldn't be any other way.

Working on my paper and making notecards still.

I hate life.

So ready for break.

Family is coming tomorrow.

And I have a football game to attend.

Which will consume about 7 hours of my life.

Which is fine...since I have so much free time.

I honestly would NOT be going if it wasn't my last game in the student section here.

So yes. Homework.

All. Freaking. Day.

Day Three Hundred and Sixteen.

Like Shards of Glass.

Day 315- November 11, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-11-11T23:20:00.001-06:00

Okay I don't have time to sleep.

So I really don't have time to do this.

Outlining to catch up.

Will have to do the same in about a week and a day.

Freaking out about my class...test next time.

Mostly I did research on my paper all day.

It's frustrating because I have nothing to show for it.

It is so much work. A crazy amount.

Plus making notecards for this Human Disease class. Not fun.

Like really that was my Thursday.

Also Kelly and I could NOT play Rat on a Scooter

Day Three Hundred and Fifteen.

Heart Muscle Quivers.

Day 314- November 10, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-11-11T18:29:00.002-06:00

Running on no sleep.

I feel like...a zombie clearly...but more than that.

It's not very different from how I have been feeling lately in general actually.

Great.

Just out of it, nauseous, out of body really.

I slept for about an hour.

Lunch with Mare! A great time.

Homework with my little. Love her.

Scrambling to do homework for my next...and favorite...class.

But I had a meeting with said teacher 30 minutes before.

So that's where I took this lovely picture.

Waiting, Shaking.

The meeting was fantastic!

I feel exponentially better.

I told her.

I don't think she believes me.

That's alright.

She didn't hate my proposal...ish.

Just...better. I feel better.

That didn't stop the shaking though.

Class was freaking hilarious.

I am going to miss those people more than I can explain.

Especially since I will most likely not have another class with 5 of the 6 of them...and never with the teach.

Not going to handle the end of the semester well.

Decided to do homework this evening. On no sleep.

Against my better judgment I laid down at about 8:35pm.

Just to think.

Fell asleep. Woke up at 5am.

Furious!!

I had to get things done.

I am not okay with this.

My walls are caving in again.

I do not like this.

Day Three Hundred and Fourteen.

"I'm Just Going To Write All Of Your Names On It!!!"...a classmate after putting her name on the evaluation. So funny.

Day 313- November 09, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-11-09T23:11:00.000-06:00

OH WOW. What a day.

It's hard to remember really.

Started studying for my test at 4:30pm...class.

Stayed in the library until 2am when it closed.

Then I went home.

I was not even close to being done studying.

Soo...I kept studying. With no intention of sleeping.

I slept before my test last time and I slept through it!

I was not taking that chance again this time!

So no sleep.

I'm not sure much studying went down either.

Unfortunately.

I do think I was quite delirious.

I was dancing...and singing...just to try to stay awake.

It was really hard actually.

If I was doing it for fun it may have been easier.

But I was having to try to retain important information in the process.

It was very difficult. Emotionally.

It felt like I was on a reality show. Like Solitary. I wish.

I'm pretty sure I had an emotional break down or two.

But I needed every minute. I studied until 7:15am when I had to get ready for the day.

The picture is the water bottle building they made.

It is for recycling awareness I believe.

It looks like a tent.

And it looks way cooler up close in person.

So yay for water bottle tents.

ob.

Day Three Hundred and Thirteen.

Well I'm Scared Of What's Behind...And What's Before.

Day 312- November 08, 2010 (Monday)

2010-11-08T23:57:00.000-06:00

I have never felt more up and down.

I hate this feeling.

I hated this day when I woke up, meeting got cancelled so it was a little better.

Pretty sure my teacher absolutely hated my proposal...which I mean I'm not too fond of it either, but I spent daaaaays of my life on it.

It was more than a little disappointing.

The weather is nice.

Campus is beautiful.

I can't be that upset when I walk outside.

Kelly came back from Utah today!!

That's good news.

Still selling my soul to the library.

Day Three Hundred and Twelve.

I Can't Take The Time Until I Next See You Smile.

Day 311- November 07, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-11-07T23:48:00.002-06:00

Days with the fam are coming to an end.

It is sad.

But gosh. I have to get back to being productive.

And I love Fayetteville. With all my heart.

And riding back with Mary was a lot of fun.

She's a fun gal.

I feel like a hermit.

I leave the library for chapter...and then go back until they kick me out.

Except any day that is not Sunday.

I leave fore meals.

It's hard to put into words how much stuff I really have to do.

Focussing on Ecology for the next several days.

Day Three Hundred and Eleven.

Almost Always Recovering From The Last Disaster.

Day 310- November 06, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-11-06T23:07:00.002-05:00

I can't get anything done.

It's so frustrating!

It's my own fault...but I have so much to do.

I shouldn't have had such high expectations for this weekend.

I went to WalMart with Pam...

And then to family's house to watch the game.

I took homework.

Didn't get any of it out.

I did get about 40 new...and freaking awesome songs.

Exciting.

I'm going to be sick over this tomorrow.

Dad had me put "All I Do Is Win" on his iPod.

That needs to be noted.

And I talked to a good friend I haven't talked to in a while.

Picture of my cousin and my baaaaby cousin. Her baby.

Both on phones. It was precious.

Day Three Hundred and Ten.

Love Is Not So Beautiful When Your Lungs Are Caving In.

Day 309- November 05, 2010 (Friday)

2010-11-05T23:02:00.001-05:00

Happy Birthday to my sister!!!

Freaking 20. Ridiculous.

Had an epic road trip home with Mare.

It was a grand time.

Spent the rest of the day running around.

I have no idea where the time went.

I'm not going to get anything done this weekend.

This is very bad.

Looking forward to the library kicking me out at 2am every morning this coming week as well.

Haircuts, smoothies, Red Lobster, chillin' at Amanda's apt.

Her friends are funny.

We took a lot of freakin sweet photos.

Once they go up, one will be put here.

Also. Kelly is in Salt Lake City. Which is quite sad.

I love this picture of Mare. So funny. She was locked out of her car. That Manda and I were in...

Also. It looks like a scene from an unnamed movie.

Day Three Hundred and Nine.

Would You Rather.

Day 308- November 04, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-11-04T23:11:00.001-05:00

I hate this day.

I hate this week.

Didn't make it to my first class. My class that has no book...just lecture.

That other people find to be common sense. Not so much for myself.

Dropped scooter off. Hopefully they can fix it.

I feel like a zombie.

And I can't stress enough that it is not because of a lack of sleep.

I sleep an average of less than 3 hours a night now.

But I function.

This feeling is different.

I just feel really out of it.

Like everything around me is moving super fast and I'm going in slo-mo.

Lacking all motivation to do anything.

Procrastinating.

Doing everything except what I need to do.

Sounds about right.

Day Three Hundred and Seven.

Hearts Would Ache.

Day 307- November 03, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-11-03T23:22:00.000-05:00

Surely my Ecology teacher hates me by now.

I woke up 17 minutes before class started. In my apartment.

So I decided to use that time wisely..and take a shower.

But in my defense, I was showered and all put together and out of the house in under 15 minutes.

Now that I've bored myself with daily happenings...what else.

The proposal is coming along.

I'm also dying.

An incredibly slow and painful death.

The more and more I write about it, the more and more I'm convinced it's a stinker.

I guess she will tell me in about a week.

I found a fantastic...absolutely fantastic song today.

I also discovered that when I write something...like with a pen...I don't worry about completely spelling the word right because if I don't, that red squiggly line will come up and tell me.

I did that today. And I stared at my paper waiting for the red line. And when it didn't come up, I celebrated my correct spelling.

I need sleep.

The picture is the current state of my desktop.

I have been print screening pandora songs to download the past 2 days.

It's getting out of hand.

But I'm pumped for the downloading.

Day Three Hundred and Seven.

Ride.

Day 306- November 02, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-11-02T20:08:00.003-05:00

I hate this day.

Not for a plethora of reasons.

I just feel hatred inside me.

And apathy.

A heck of a lot of apathy.

Mixed with sleep deprivation...not good.

It's hard for me to care about anything now.

I would rather sit here.

I could sit here and think forever.

I have 2 papers and a proposal...then another paper to write.

I would rather sit here.

It's a weird feeling...it's been a while, feeling.

I'm sure people see me and think I need more sleep.

While that's true...that's not it.

I can't explain it.

I feel like I'm not here. Or I don't want to be here.

I don't know.

Day Three Hundred and Six.

Sometimes Beginnings Aren't So Simple...Sometimes Goodbye's The Only Way.

Day 305- November 01, 2010 (Monday)

2010-11-01T23:30:00.000-05:00

Happy Birthday month to my sister today!! I love you!!

<--This. This is what I have been doing today.

Researching sources about South Park.

Sounds like a walk in the park. Fun even.

Wrong.

It was. It was fun the first 7 hours.

I am on hour 13.5!!!

I did do 3 hours of homework for another class before that though.

Gah I have been in my head all day.

I hate it.

I need to talk it out.

I talk myself in circles in my head.

This is a constant battle.

I always have about 72 conversations going on at one time in my head.

72 may be an exaggeration...but 5-7 is not.

It's exhausting.

Picking a topic and planning this paper will absolutely be the death of me.

I can feel it.

Feeling abnormally apathetic today.

I'm trying not to be.

It's a hard fight.

Day Three Hundred and Five.

Something Appealing. Something Appalling.

Day 304- October 31, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-10-31T23:49:00.000-05:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

It's weird how different the holiday is now than when I was a kid.

Today is just another day that I have to do a crap load of homework.

We did Trick-or-Treat-for-Cans.

In costume. Fantastic.

I was called a bird, duck, turkey, chicken...and an ostrich once.

It's an ostrich. But the children were so funny with it. It was precious.

Homework until the library kicks me out.

My life. On repeat.

Day Three Hundred and Four.

I'm Grabbing At The Fray For Something That Won't Drown.

Day 303- October 30, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-10-30T23:43:00.001-05:00

Well if anything is going to make me happier it is our school mascots.

It's a strange love.

I can't explain it. They are like precious warm... HILARIOUS...puppies.

That I love. With my whole heart.

For homecoming, they all dress up.

Boss Hog even put a tie on his huge neck.

He is way too active...it didn't last past kick off.

I managed to get absolutely nothing done today as well.

It's like a talent.

So it was a day of mixed emotions.

So incredibly stressed. Which...for some reason...leads to a giant blanket of depression.

But I spent the greater part of the day with some wonderful friends.

I didn't really think about homework this evening.

The relief was critical. Absolutely critical.

It was a great night...it was.

I left some quotes with Emily so those should be remembered.

Day Three Hundred and Three.

"It's Mostly A Picture Of Feet...But Faces Are In It."

Day 302- October 29, 2010 (Friday)

2010-10-29T23:39:00.000-05:00

Today I felt like a failure.

How do I have so much time...a day full of potential to get things done...and I can't.

I can't make progress on anything.

It sucks.

I have never felt more overwhelmed in my life.

More anxious.

I have never hit those two buttons more.

Poor keyboard.

Last homecoming pep rally was tonight!

It was sad actually.

I know the Homecoming Queen.

Famous by association.

About time.

She deserves it. She is a great girl.

Game tomorrow.

Maybe my spirits will lift.

Day Three Hundred and Two.

Signal Fire.

Day 301- October 28, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-10-28T23:31:00.000-05:00

My god.

This day.

I will remember this day. I will.

I'm so tired of writing about the ordinary.

It's stupid.

What happened out of the ordinary?

I had a meeting. With my favorite teacher.

This blog could end here.

In fact, it might.

It would. If I didn't see a fantastic musical.

Urinetown.

I get the song stuck in my head whenever I talk about it.

This was outstanding. And I don't like musicals.

I laughed, I cried, I sang...and sang.

My days will be occupied with thinking about a topic for the next week. For my New Media and Communication Technologies paper...

I'm no good at this.

This will be a challenge.

A lot of challenges.

Day Three Hundred and One.

One Sided At Best.

...perfect.

Day 300- October 27, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-10-27T16:12:00.000-05:00

Happy Day 300!!

I can't believe I have posted 300 times.

About nothing.

How insignificant.

A waste of time?

I don't know if I will do a blog next year.

Maybe a regular blog. Whenever I want.

With a picture when I feel like it.

Not as an obligation.

Today would not have been one of those days.

I took a picture of my calculator...

Library until 2am. This is redundant.

Up til 4am.

That was my day.

Nervous about tomorrow.

Psych stat test. Meeting with my favorite teacher.

We've not spoken before.

But I love her. And I have a sinking feeling I won't understand what she is saying. Smart gal.

And I'm no expert in new media and communication technologies.

Yet.

Just you wait. Henry Higgins. Just you wait.

Wrong.

Right so yay. I'd rather stay awake than go to sleep only to wake up way too soon and it be tomorrow.

Day Three Hundred.

All We Are.

Day 299- October 26, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-10-26T23:01:00.001-05:00

*Whimpers*

And the week continues.

Against my will.

Ridiculous test number 1 is out of the way. That is good.

And it actually went a lot better than I anticipated.

I think anyways. Probably not. That's about my luck.

So I'm still spending every waking moment in the library.

It will be this way infinitely I believe.

I mean my days are not exciting.

I don't write this for entertainment purposes.

I don't think my life is so interesting that everyone needs to read about every moment that happens.

It's for me. To remember. And it was for my sister.

But she doesn't get on here anymore.

And now I know nothing about her life.

I think it would have been cool to see the development of the relationship with who is now the love of her life. For now.

I wonder if she wishes she still wrote.

These cookies were in Club Red. The name of them is epic.

Kelly thought it was pronounced Bigga cookie. Just adding that soft 'a' to the end.

Nope. Big A Cookie. Ya know. Big A** cookie.

It's funny! Touche Club Red. Touche.

Tonight was the fabulous night of the candy bag making and then the October birthday party!!

It was so much fun!!

We had a cookie walk and then played Mafia.

I pwned at both.

Oh and my costume is fantastic.

Day Two Hundred and Ninety Eight.

Rat On A Scooter.

Day 298- October 25, 2010 (Monday)

2010-10-25T23:33:00.001-05:00

Meeting cancelled.

That's all that had to be in this blog to make it a great day.

I have my Human Disease test tomorrow.

Noooot good. I am so borderline right now.

Not okay.

So tried to study this morning.

Went to get candy for hospital children's bags.

Then we stopped and got fried pickles.

Listen. I hate pickles. These are so good.

Mostly until about November 5 my blog is going to a place where I say I'm stressed out.

Cool.

Day Two Hundred and Ninety Seven.

Not Enough Time In The Days.

Day 297- October 24, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-10-24T23:28:00.000-05:00

We went Halloween costume shopping today!!

What a long process though.

It was fun.

Visited Jerrika too!

Laura joined. I was the only one who got a costume.

Kelly got one later, and I doubt Laura will get one at all.

But mine is AWESOME!!! I'm super pumped.

So then by like 6pm we went to school. So much to do.

Everyone else was at the Snoop Dogg concert.

We had tickets, but there was no way either of us could go.

We were the last ones in the library when they kicked us out at 2am. Yay.

I don't see a lot of sleep in my future.

Day Two Hundred and Ninety Seven.

Intrinsically Cope.

Day 296- October 23, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-10-23T23:22:00.000-05:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDDY!!!!

After sleeping for not near enough hours, we all got up...reluctantly...and headed to recycle.

It was difficult. So early. No one had trash.

We got to go in from underneath. Pretty sweet.

Awesome seats as you can see. My zoom is not on.

Fantastic. Even through the monsoon, the two game delays, and Houston being a jerk.

Surrounding myself with great people.

We won the game. Wonderful.

Padj came in today!!! I love him!!

Got to see him for zero time.

He came to the apartment. Kelly fell asleep on the floor, I fell asleep on the couch, and he fell asleep on the chair.

So funny.

Birthday dinner at Kosmos. Besides them tricking me into eating lamb, it was delicious!! My chicken fingers that is.

Spent several hours on Dickson then craaaaashed.

So much crap to do tomorrow.

What an unproductive weekend.

Day Two Hundred and Ninety Six.

Holding Pattern.

Day 295- October 22, 2010 (Friday)

2010-10-22T23:15:00.000-05:00

Super stressed out about the amount of stuff I have to do.

But I have two weeks. Give me a week and I will be deathly.

Today was wonderful.

It was Laura's birthday eve!

Volunteered at the FPL shifting books.

I loooooved it. Systematic. Organized. Perfect.

Q'doba with some pals.

Then off to acquire celebratory drinks for Laura's bday. She is going to be 22!! So crazy.

I have old friends.

I will be 22 before I know it. I think I'm okay with it though.

Stayed at the girls' apartment overnight. Hanging out. Having a great time.

We wrote stories. I need to get copies.

Emily's guys came over. It was fun. We went to bed at 3:30am...

Recycling with the Razorbacks starts at 8:30am.

House is getting up at 7am. Whooo.

Day Two Hundred and Ninety Five.

"What If God Was...A Robot..."

Day 294- October 21, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-10-21T23:04:00.002-05:00

Being up for 20 hours a day is weird.

So disorienting.

Plasmaaaaaa. Gotta love it.

Love the people so much. I will be really sad when I never see them again.

Anyways. Panic attack about how much crap I have to do.

Watched some awesome Monsters Inside Me video clips in Human Disease. Crazy.

Traaaaaains. I love the train game.

It's hard now though.

I feel like a zombie in class.

He asked me a question in Stat...I kinda just stared back at him...I knew the answer, or at least knew I could get to it if I just thought about it.

But I couldn't make myself think about it.

It's a weird feeling.

I deleted my Criminal Justice Major today.

That really happened over a year ago, but it never got processed.

I felt a little embarrassed really...but there is no way I could have done it.

I was physically at the library...but not mentally.

It took me 5 hours to read a journal article about YouTube.

Oh I got my Ecology test 2 grade back...

I got a 100%!!!!

That's the one I was insanely late for.

I was so pumped!!!!

Now I just have to average a 95 on the next 2 tests in order to get an A in the class.

No pressure.

The picture is my first grad school spam mail!!!

It's like graduating high school all over again!!

It made me feel all weird inside.

Day Two Hundred and Ninety Four.

This Street Smells Like Tootsie Rolls.

Day 293- October 20, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-10-20T22:08:00.003-05:00

Woke up way too late.

Made it to class 3 minutes early though. Win.

Spent the entire morning in the lab.

But it was alllllright.

In my haste I forgot my lunch.

So went home and took Kelly with me.

Baaaack to school for class. Philosophy suuucks.

It's not even a philosophy class.

RAN down the hill.

Trick or Treat for Cans Bag Distribution in fancy neighborhoods.

Back up to campus to go to a lecture from the"...Rebecca Skloot.

It was fantastic. So interesting. Super sweet.

Straight to WalMart then.

Now we are eating dinner at 10pm.

Woo. Exhausted.

Day Two Hundred and Ninety Three.

Killing A Dead Horse.

Day 292- October 19, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-10-19T22:10:00.006-05:00

I have to get more sleep.

My jugement is impaired.

For numerous reasons.

See other.

Whoo had to get up really early.

For plasma. I kept falling asleep.

Against the rules.

That's when I knew it was going to be a long day.

Headed to campus early because it was time to TURN IN MY SURF GRANT APPLICATION!!!

I'm so pumped. It's out of my hands now.

I knew it was going to be a long 2.5 week--from when I decided to do it to when it was due...and it was.

I feel a little emptier without it though.

What am I going to do now to procrastinate doing regular homework.

I've actually been doing pretty well at it lately.

It was cold and rainy all day.

I liked it...when I was inside.

The sky was white. My favorite!!!

This is the library.

From a different angle than I normally see it.

I love this building. So much.

Came back from dinner. Two girls took over our table.

BS. So we left.

It was almost Webinar party time anyways.

So I came here then I went there.

With Jerrika and Laura.

It was fun.

Then I celebrated being done with SURF.

That's my day.

Okay editing: I am watching Let's Make A Deal.

One girl dressed up as a sunflower in a pot. It's really cute actually.

So he says "blah blah I will give you 3 times what your roll, etc"

She, apparently not hearing a word he said, goes "i love you."

And his response. So quick. So serious. "Oh thank you potted plant"

This is hilarious!!! I'm dying. Still rewinding it! Win.

Day Two Hundred and Ninety Two.

Changes In Degree...Not In Kind.

Day 291- October 18, 2010 (Monday)

2010-10-18T23:27:00.004-05:00

The morning is a blur.

So is the afternoon.

I'm convinced the night is still clear because I am living it...now.

Tomorrow it too will be a blur.

Woke up feeling intensely apathetic.

Lately.

I wish it was cold. Maybe I get depressed during the hot months...like the opposite of SAD.

This piece of sidewalk art made my day a little brighter at 8am.

It's true. A bajillion.

Signatures all day.

Meetings and lectures. Homework.

So exhausted.

Turing in SURF tomorrow. Finally.

I have 1/3 of my letters of recommendation. Great.

Right now I am at my favorite apartment (aside from my own I guess...) watching Degrassi with 3 of my favorite people.

I like tonight. I have things to do...but I like this better.

Day Two Hundred and Ninety One.

Catastrophic Loss.

Day 290- October 17, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-10-17T23:18:00.001-05:00

Tried to get up early, but that never goes well.

Homework, chapter, more homework.

This picture represents the best part of my night. Hands down. For sure.

I love the people in this photo. So much.

I did not like this day.

I was fairly productive.

Feeling annoyed. Feeling suffocated.

In several aspects.

I don't like it.

The basement of Mullins was a nice escape.

Like a field trip. I needed it.

Expected sightings to no avail.

Yep. Sleeping. At 3:30am.

Started a new one today. For me.

Not for you.

Day Two Hundred and Ninety.

"I Mean..I Will Be Going As Ke$ha...But You Can Go As Whatever"--ha! dress up night at the HPER.

Day 289- October 16, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-10-16T23:00:00.001-05:00

Whoo. Got in at a little before 9am.

Slept until a little after noon.

Listen. That's still not enough sleep.

Personally...I am beginning to think sleep is a waste of time more and more.

That's why it is 3am...and I am up writing this.

Lunched it up...went to the library.

I hate that it is only open until 6pm on Friday and Saturday.

Like really...let's encourage our students not to study on the weekend. Jerks.

So I got to be there for a mere 2 hours.

Dinner at Mexico Viejo with Kelly for our quarter-of-a-decade-iversary.

Ice cream at Orange Mango (Moonberries blah) with Kelly and Jamb.

Then the usual midnight watching of this week's Bones episode.

...And when I say usual I mean this is the first time we have done it..but it seemed to work well.

Day Two Hundred and Eighty Nine.

Left Breathless.

Day 288- October 15, 2010 (Friday)

2010-10-15T23:12:00.001-05:00

First off. Happy Birthday to my cousin Bianca and my friend for 21.5 years Brittany!!

Love you both.

Just the one class today.

So stressed out about the SURF stuff still.

Mostly because I haven't gotten any info back from anyone.

Please. Please just answer my questions. Please.

It's due Tuesday. Then I won't have to think about it again.

If I get it, I get it; if I don't, I don't.

Being productive proved harder today than I thought.

I did buy a whole winter wardrobe...sweat pants, sweatshirts, tshirts, long sleeve shirts, etc.

For under 80 bucks. A steal indeed.

Today was FIELD DAY!!!!!

Okay first we cleaned the park. And found horse apples.

Weirdest things in the world.

So we decided to put them in the bag and throw them away.

The park did not need them.

Theeeeeen field day. It was so much fun!!

Gah our FC put a heck of a lot of work into it.

It paid off. It was the most people I have ever seen at a fellowship.

It was fantastic!!

Time flew by. Lots of bonding. Even more laughing.

We played football, kickball, tug-o-war, egg toss, water balloon toss, egg on a spoon run, sack race, human knot, put group through a hula hoop, and water balloon all out war.

It was more fun than I can put in words.

Saw the very competitive side of unexpected people. Interesting.

Shower, first dinner, off to our place of rest...for the night...not death.

A lot of people came to that too!!

Kickball style pumpkin decorating and (unexpected but wonderful) SARDINES!!!

We had good hiders.

So close to every single person went out for food at 2am.

Mmm and donuts.

Then...at 3am we started a monumental game of MAO!!!

It started with two tables worth of people.

Several people got frustrated.

Cards were thrown, chairs flipped over, madness.

There were 6 or 7 of us left playing...until 5:45am. Oh yes.

Just what I needed.

It was such a brilliant time. With great, great people.

Exactly what I needed.

I loved this night. With my whole heart.

Laid down sleeping bags at 5:45am. Alarms set for 7:30am.

I loved this night.

Day Two Hundred and Eighty Eight.

Diagonal Subtraction.

Day 287- October 14, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-10-14T23:01:00.001-05:00

What a long day. This morning doesn't really seem like this morning.

So I didn't have my first class. Class at 2pm then. Cool.

Got to sleep in a little bit.

Biolife. Also grand. Legit.

Then I went to the mall since I was over there.

Picked up a couple of bracelets I have been wanting...for a total of 10 bucks.

Fine with me.

Uh picture. This was the window at Forever 21.

Now we know their manikins are usually ridiculous. Like bent over and posing weird.

But they usually have CLOTHES on!!!

What the heck?!

I literally stopped dead in my tracks and busted out laughing.

If you look closely...2 of them have any clothes on, most of them are not whole bodies, and there are pieces...PIECES!!!...of them on the floor of the window!!!

It looks like a massacre!!

There was not even a worker fixing them up or anything.

That's just how they were...

Brilliant.

Mmm lunch. Got my official transcript.

Got my Snoop Dogg ticket.

Okay then after class I spent 9 hours going over 2 class periods of Ecology.

Dense freaking material.

I made like 150 notecards! For 2- 50 minute classes!

Great.

But I mean at least I was productive.

I didn't hang out with anyone today...which was super weird.

I saw Laura and Brooke as we left the library at 1am.

I luff them.

I'm freaking out about my SURF stuff.

The teacher part I mean.

I have 0/3 letters of recommendation, nothing from my advisor, no budget, no revisions to my papers, nothing...

I have done all I can do people!! Let's go!!

Time is running out!!

Gah I haaaate relying on other people. Like group work. Stupid.

They are doing me a huge favor, absolutely.

It just stresses me out.

Pledge-Active is tomorrow!!!

Super pumped!!!!

Day Two Hundred and Eighty Seven.

With Grace In Your Heart....And Flowers In Your Hair.

Day 286- October 13, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-10-13T23:51:00.001-05:00

I changed my background on my computer today. I love it.

It's from a blog I am also newly obsessed with but don't have time for.

So yeah.

I had lunch with Mary today!!

I laughed so much! It was a lot of fun.

I really love her a lot.

Tonight I got some things done, but kinda took it easy.

I'm just not feeling school this week.

I got my GRE writing test score back.

Not thrilled...but I'm not doing it again.

Also...teacher was disappointed in the ENTIRE class about our second application papers. Granted there are only 6 of us...still.

Just not my favorite day.

Until about 10:30pm.

I received a Degrassi invitation text.

Uh yes.

So I went to watch it with Jerrika and Kendall.

Jerrika made it though about 10 minutes.

Kendall actually watched all 3 episodes with me.

Came back and cleaned the apartment. Much needed.

For both of us. Catharsis.

Day Two Hundred and Eighty Six.

"I Mean...He's Kinda Like A Woman"--Mare.

Day 285- October 12, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-10-12T23:45:00.001-05:00

It is days like these that make me sick that I'm leaving this place.

What a beautiful day.

This picture doesn't even do the campus justice right now.

Just beautiful.

Classes, classes.

The significant part of my day was that I FINISHED MY SURF GRANT APPLICATION...first draft!!!

No this is fantastic news!!!

I have been dreading it and thinking I just couldn't do it.

But I did! And emailed it to my advisor.

Hopefully he sends it back soon...with revisions...I don't need more stress.

And I watched Glee. That's significant for sure.

Day Two Hundred and Eighty Five.

"I Know. For A While I Thought You Were A Robot"

Day 284- October 11, 2010 (Monday)

2010-10-11T23:22:00.003-05:00

So I think I am still shaking.

I knew I wasn't going to sleep much.

Kelly was prepared to call me if she hadn't heard from me an hour before my test.

Jamb was prepared to wake Kelly up if something happened.

None of us have overslept this year so it didn't seem likely.

But it happened.

Kelly's phone fell on the floor and came apart. No alarm.

Jamb overslept.

So did I.

My test started at 8:30am.

Kelly called me at 8:53am.

Honestly I am still in shock. This is so unlike me it is unreal.

I was numb. I didn't know what to do.

I didn't shower, I didn't brush my teeth, I essentially wore my pajamas and flew out the door.

Hopped on my scooter. The lights were working in my favor.

As was parking.

Got to my actual classroom at 9:03am.

I have no idea how I made it there.

I feel like I blacked out or something.

So I walk in...one word and I will completely break down.

Teacher looks at me...my gosh for what seemed like forever.

Asks if I have a scantron. Hands me a test.

Now regardless of how impressively fast I made it there...class was still ending in 17 minutes.

By the end of that time, I had done all 5 essays (biology essays!!), all the multiple choice, all most of the true/false.

So I had to complete some chart values and do 3 true/falses.

I knew the material cold!!!

She reserved a room for after class in case people needed to finish up. And told me I could come.

I honestly didn't even know if she was going to give a test.

Which I mean I couldn't have blamed her for not.

But about 25 people who were there the whole time hadn't finished yet.

After I triple checked everything, I still finished before about 10 people.

Gah I felt AWFUL. Like I disappointed her.

I got a 70 on the first test...slept through the first one...this is not me!

She has such the wrong impression of me...it makes me sad.

I think it's past repair at this point.

So that was emotionally exhausting. Awful.

Welcome to Monday.

Went back to my apartment to take a shower and all that.

Reserved Snoop Dogg ticket. Picture.

I just think it's funny.

I had my new media class outside today at Starbucks.

It was fun.

But I know I was zoning out and not really there.

Still pretty traumatized from the morning.

Day Two Hundred and Eighty Four.

The Day I Overslept...Through My Test.

Day 283- October 10, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-10-10T23:15:00.002-05:00

Not a lot to report today.

I got up decently early, watched Bones with Jamb and Kelly and then headed to the library.

Took a break for chapter, then back to the library.

Pirates versus ninjas and some unexpected guests.

I studied for a total of 17 hours today. 17 hours.

I got kicked out of the library at 2am.

Came to my apartment and studied for 3 more hours.

I think my favorite part of the day was when Laura texted me at 5:15am "do we need a scantron for the test?"

And...because I too was awake...texted back-- "yep a blue one."

It was just funny. A 5:15am phone call.

Aright 1.5 hours of sleep. Let's do it!!

I'm so going to own this Ecology test!!!

I feel so much better about this one than the last one...I mean I still have some things to go over in the morning, but I'm predicting better things.

Day Two Hundred and Eighty Three.

Impeding My Struggle For Existence.

Day 282- October 09, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-10-09T23:52:00.002-05:00

Gah this day just makes me mad at myself.

This morning we went to the mall to get some new glasses.

Went ahead and got a check up just for kicks.

Turns out I'm going blind. Yay.

And no more contacts for as far as doctor lady can see into the future.

Joy. So Oh my glasses are RayBans!!!

That's pretty freaking exciting.

I like them a lot.

We had to wait around to pick them up because I drove, my eyes were dilated, and I was not allowed to wear contacts.

So I ate ice cream and Kelly went shopping.

Went up to school to do research with some pals at 3:30pm. Tried to work on my paper a little bit, but that didn't go well.

There was dinner in there somewhere, a small break, and back to the research building for a couple of hours.

Now. Don't get me wrong. I had a heck of a lot of fun researching.

I laughed more than I have in a while.

I'm sure it was much needed for my sanity.

Then to Gregson to do homework.

I thought 3am was late...so I took this picture.

This is the time I left to go back to my home.

Day 2 in a row. This is not a good habit.

Day Two Hundred and Eighty Two.

So Til The Morning Breaks...Go And Make Your Mistakes.

Day 281- October 08, 2010 (Friday)

2010-10-08T23:45:00.002-05:00

Friday Friday.

One class today. It was a good time.

Test in there on Monday. Pretty stressed, but mostly I just want teach to know that I'm not a crappy student...which is not evident from last test.

I have been paying much better attention and keeping up with everything more.

I think it will be okay, but until Monday at 9:20am I will most likely just be sick about it.

My plan today was to work on my paper and SURF stuff in the morning then do gels with a friend in the afternoon. She got sick so I was just going to knock it out in the morning.

I went in at 9:15am. I did not leave until 3:30am. That's a grand total of 16 hours.

I was not going to write anything today, but I have calmed down a little bit.

Something kept going wrong. And I had no idea what is was. And that's the most frustrating thing.

So after way too many attempts, I had to give up.

Kelly came and sat/did homework with me. It was incredibly sweet. She was a trooper.

We brainstormed about my paper most of the time.

I think we finally agreed upon a direction, but I'm still pretty hesitant about it.

Writing day will be tomorrow so we will see how it goes.

Also. We have selective autumn here in Fayetteville. *see picture*

Day Two Hundred and Eighty One.

Jungle Rabbits.

Day 280- October 07, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-10-07T22:54:00.001-05:00

Happy Birthday to Emily today!!!

Rang in her birthday at midnight. It was a wild time haha.

Did the whole class thing, went back to apartment with Kelly and waited for Laura to get out of class.

Then she waited on us to get there.

Whoops.

Headed to Emily's bday dinner.

It was at Hugo's. Never heard of it. But it was deliiiiicious.

Then after some debate about some famous people at 10pm, we went to Dickson street!

We are bargain shoppers now. Ha.

Kelly had dinner and enough drinks for under 10 bucks. It was really nice. Not too early, not too late. I have a huge weekend in front of me. A really crappy one. So much stuff to do. I am getting so stressed out.

Picture is our first drinks of the night. It was me, Kelly, Laura, Mersey, and Emily.

So yes. Fun.

Day Two Hundred and Eighty.

"Hmm..I Don't Know Where I Took That Bite From..."--Emily

Gin Berry.

Day 279- October 06, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-10-06T23:48:00.002-05:00

What a ride today was.

Started off almost being late to my first class.

When I say late I mean I almost didn't get there before the class before me was let out.

Did homework for several hours.

Tried to run a batch of Gel Electrophoresis plates with Molly...that didn't go well.

We are trying again on Friday.

Was actually late to my second class at 3:30 because I was running from the research building.

I felt really bad.

Went to the library to do some good ole Ecology then off to the apartment for dinner. Nom.

WalMart with Kelly and Laura. Hung out at the girls' apartment for enough time to ring in Emily's 22nd birthday!! Yay!!

Laura read the monologue that Jerrika wrote...which I thought was fantastic.

She was still procrastinating writing her short story when I left.

Despite the fact that Laura and I gave her fool-proof ideas.

Like staying past close at the Haunted Mansion in Disney World.

She wasn't having it.

Picture serves a two fold purpose. One side maps Jerrika's previous road trip.

The other side maps the next. Exciting indeed.

Day Two Hundred and Seventy Nine.

A Tendency To Cycle.

Day 278- October 05, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-10-05T23:41:00.001-05:00

High pulse. I think they have just come to expect that of me.

Like they tell me the instructions to sit and wait because they have to...but I know them word for word...

It was low enough the second time which was fantastic!

First class only lasted 5 minutes. Good thing because I had to do some homework for class number 2.

I was pretty productive though.

Set up an eye appointment for Saturday so I can get some new glasses. Fantastic news.

Library-ed it up for a while.

I decided to apply for a grant today.

It's going to be a heck of a lot of work...for what will probably end up being nothing.

It's worth a shot.

Today...I drew a face on Jamb's stapler...and then it was hungry. So it ate the cookie.

Also. I have to start doing better on my tests. It's really frustrating.

And there's my day.

Day Two Hundred and Seventy Eight.

Chances Of It Being Chance.

Day 277- October 04, 2010 (Monday)

2010-10-04T23:46:00.005-05:00

I have been dreading this day since last Monday.

Meeting. No thank you.

And today I had two.

After not enough sleep and freezing temperatures, I somehow managed to drag myself out of bed.

Got ready. Running late. Scooter won't start.

Didn't plan for that in my timing.

Will have to park further away.

Drive my car. Which is a beast now compared to the tiny scooter.

Didn't know how to work the Parking Garage. Grr.

Angry man honking at me when I wasn't even close to being in his way.

Shut up sir.

Made it.

Found out I have a test in a week in Ecology. Death.

I have to do outstanding on this one to make up for my last score.

Like I legit have to make an A to bring my grade up to a B.

I can't stay at a C until the next test.

I will die of the stress. This is not a joke.

So 4 hours until my meeting. Dread dread dread.

Checked my email at 8:29am hoping for a cancellation (never happens). Nothing.

Checked email for no reason at 11am.

MEETING IS CANCELLED!!!! What?! I was in the best mood I could possibly be in.

Email was sent at 8:33am. Sigh.

So then just the one meeting at 2.

Gah and she was super sweet. I am glad to have her on my committee as well.

She also said she would write me a Rec if I ever needed one.

Fantastic. Because no one else in the Bio dept even knows my name...unless they are my fave and is in DC...

Laura came up to the office. And we looked up weird things people try to sell online.

A quote from her: "I will find you Bella's womb!" Such determination. A true friend indeed.

And on the Edward wigs for cats..."I mean seriously, this is a rather fine wig" I love you.

I needed the laughter. Thank you buddy.

The picture is my new obsession.

For the past couple of days, I have lived and breathed this band, Mumford and Sons.

I shazam-ed THREE of their songs unknowingly, at different times, not related, different songs.

On the third time I was like alright I have to own this album.

So I do. And I honestly think it has increased my quality of life.

It is so wonderful. I recommend it to anyone...unless you listen to mainstream pop music.

Then don't even think about it!

Library after class. Too tired to do anything.

Dinner then apt to get my computer.

Kelly came with me.

Bad idea.

We took an accidental nap. Didn't get back to the library until almost 9pm. Heh.

Catching up on blogs to avoid homework.

It's working...until now...I don't have any more blogs to do...

Alright. Homework.

Quote is from Comm Colloquium. Brilliant.

Day Two Hundred and Seventy Seven.

"Different Ways To Misunderstand Ourselves"...gah I love her.

Day 276- October 03, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-10-03T23:29:00.000-05:00

Woke up way too late yet again.

Bad.

Watched Bones at 1pm with Jamb and Kelly and then headed to the library.

Had less than 4 hours to get a lot done.

I was told to read a grant proposal pertaining to my thesis, and to look up and read through the sources he (my director) used to to get some general knowledge about it.

This is for my meeting with him Monday afternoon.

So I open the proposal this afternoon...yes.

20 pages of words I can't understand...and 178 sources!!!

WHAT?! Listen sir...it's not going to happen.

It took me my entire life to get through the proposal...

I tried to look up some of the sources...but most of them I couldn't get access to.

Which was fine with me. But I did look up some actual general info online to be somewhat prepared.

No. I was vastly un-prepared for this meeting.

I also remembered at 11pm about a 4 hour, 2 day procedure I was supposed to do this week.

Jesus. So. Not good.

I came up with a plan though and it should be alright.

Chapter at 6 was a Mystery Quest!!!

It was fantastic. Seriously. Hats off to our coordinators.

It was a lot of fun! Big Reveal.

Regular chapter.

Big/Little Dinner! Okay so my night was actually really good. Heh.

Side note but not really. I adore my little. So much. So much.

Oh. Scooter won't start as of this day. Great.

Then brought Kelly some McDonald's in Bell...she has a test tomorrow. There is really no telling what/if she would have eaten otherwise.

Crazy kid.

Then to the girls' apartment to continue the Degrassi Marathon!!!!!

So amazing. I cannot even explain.

It just makes everything alright.

I don't worry about anything when I am over there watching Degrassi.

So I have developed some addictive characteristics. I don't care.

Also. I much prefer Degrassi to sleep.

Which is quite evident in the amount of sleep I get on Degrassi nights.

There is a frost advisory in effect from 1am to 9am. Great.

Then it's supposed to be 78 in the afternoon.

What the heck weather?!

I hate you. Just be cold.

Picture is self-explantory.

Season 1 Ashley. Duh.

Happy Birthday to my childhood best friend. I love you. And miss you.

Day Two Hundred and Seventy Six.

"Height Subordinate To His Heart"--Liberty about JT!

Day 275- October 02, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-10-02T23:02:00.003-05:00

Another day of sleeping in way too late. Whooops.

Was definitely supposed to get up early and start on some homework today.

So a lot was planned for tonight. Busy.

Went to the library at 1 to try to get something done.

Not a lot happened.

Left at about 5pm. Kelly and I were going to dinner!

Applebee's. Nom.

Then we went to see a movie and headed to Dickson for ice cream at Orange Mango.

I refuse to call it Moonberries. Stupid.

We accumulated a Laura on the way. Then we walked down Dickson during Bikes, Blues, and BBQ...prime time.

I figured it is my last time to be here for it and I needed to experience it at least once.

After I saw the lead singer to a band I looooove...and creepily stalked her from afar...we walked for about another 10 minutes.

We are pretty wild I would say.

Then we went to a house. It was relaxed and nice.

A good time. Especially the garage.

Oh this picture. I will try to write down everything while I still remember it.

Okay.

--Well obviously the thing that looks like a house is....my house (street level view).

..............don't ask about the guttering system.

--The circle at the base is my front door.

--The silver piece of hardware inside is my precious puppy Simba.

--The black circle with Simba is myself.

--On top, that sandpaper is clearly the chimney.

--With Santa coming down it.

--Way over to the right is Poland (the glass on the sandpaper)

--The black spray paint can is the hot-tub.

--The used cigarette is M. Night Shyamalan planning his next terrifying movie under the tree.

--The spray paint can is the tree.

--The Camel box serves a two-fold purpose: It represents the leaves of the tree and the moon shining through them.

--The rolled up trash below that is Hitler...in the tree.

--And attached to Hitler (unused cigarette) is his arm. Extended of course.

--To the left of the tree you will see the neighborhood race car followed closely by the Volkswagen Van.

I think that's it. Fantastic.

Imaginations at their best I would say.

Props to Jerrika and Kendall for creating this masterpiece.

I'm glad it's documented.

So yes. A fun night indeed. I was sad to leave.

Tomorrow is going to suck.

So much to do for research. So little time.

Some Kendall quotes for the title today.

Day Two Hundred and Seventy Five.

"What's Your Guttering System?!?!"

"I Can't Stand Things That Poo"

"Oh No...I Accidentally Married Hitler..."

Day 274- October 01, 2010 (Friday)

2010-10-01T22:44:00.003-05:00

I loooove Fridays.

Today I was uber productive too!!

Well until about 2pm. I planned on being productive after that, but...I love TV more than homework.

So at 2 I met with Jamb to get the first of my committee signatures for my Thesis.

I about died.

It's a good thing she was there.

The professor is a giant sweetheart. But I am just no good with people.

Check. So off to get transcripts. Done.

1 signature left.

Went to the apartment where Kelly was napping.

We were going to head to the mall at like 3:30...but you know...TV.

So then at about 4:30 my friend texts me and asks if I will turn a hard copy of a paper in for her because she is 200 miles away.

Well of course.

But everything that could go wrong...did.

It was like a movie. I feel like I hurdled things. If my knee was stable this may be a more convincing argument.

Made it there at 5:01pm. But I think the teacher went home at like 1pm.

So I slid it under the door. I hope all goes well with that.

So American Eagle time.

Yay new jeans. Boo how much they cost.

Then I got Dip-N-Dots and sat on the bench while Kelly went in all her stores.

Heh.

Dinner and no attempt at any more homework.

Good.

DINOSAUR!!! Was at the mall.

It was sad because no one is allowed to touch it...he is lonely.

Also the drawing of the dinosaur on the paper attached to him was freaking hilarious.

Fridays.

Oh I also listened to my Backstreet Boys station Marinna made on Pandora for me...for about 5 hours of homework. It was fantastic.

Happy October!!

Day Two Hundred and Seventy Four.

If We Open Our Fingers And Loosen Our Grips...

Day 273- September 30, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-09-30T23:45:00.000-05:00

I was stressed out about this day.

Plasma took an hour and a half. Versus the normal 45 minutes.

I was 3 minutes early for my test.

Brilliant way to start my day I'd say.

Test was blah.

Then went up the hill to study for test numero dos.

Took that one. Yay.

Then had 20 minutes of class.

It was exhausting.

WalMart, Union for dinner, GAME NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

That's the picture. Playing Mao.

Fan. Freaking. Tastic.

It was such a great time. We also played Apples to Apples.

It was so nice to just relax.

Then back to the girls' apartment.

We watched Project Runway and started the Degrassi marathon!!!

So awesome. It will only get better. And I cannot wait!

Tomorrow is October. Which means Fall to me!!

Also very excited about that.

That is all for now. So much crap to do this weekend.

And have to track down teachers to get their signatures. For my committee.

Stressed.

Day Two Hundred and Seventy Three.

Clarity That Clouds My Mind.

Day 272- September 29, 2010 (Wednesday)

2010-09-29T21:35:00.002-05:00

Welcome BIKES, BLUES, AND BBQ!!!!

Bikers from all over the country come here for this.

To party on Dickson until the end of this coming weekend.

It is so ridiculously crazy. In a cool way.

I was so tired all day. Gah.

Uh someone moved my scooter and blocked it in! Jerk! I needed to get out. And it's 400 pounds.

I'm strong, but not that strong.

Jamb came to help me. Thank gosh!

I would not have been able to lift it without her.

Aww Emily's eye is so messed up. It was really sad.

Chauffeured her around because she can't see.

Homework. Did some with Marinna!! Love her.

Class. Library.

Puuuuublic Library. Gas.

Drove down Dickson to get back. It was a crazy thing.

See picture. This is day 1...and it's during the week...it's going to get so much crazier.

Now I have two tests tomorrow and am procrastinating studying.

It's 10. Yeah.

Day Two Hundred and Seventy Two.

'Til The Sky Comes Back.

Day 271- September 28, 2010 (Tuesday)

2010-09-28T21:15:00.000-05:00

Tueeeeeeesday.

Well. I found out I have a test on Thursday that I was unaware of...

So now two. Two on Thursday.

Can't wait.

The plan was to get the engine replaced in my scooter today...or at least drop it off.

So she followed me down there so she could bring me back, but they said it would be like a 3 week wait...so I kept it.

It is starting for now...knock on freaking wood.

Then Kelly and I had a picnic at the apartment.

Mmm chicken nuggets and cheese whiz.

Next class. Teach asked me to be a note-taker.

So I'll be doing that now.

Libraried it up as usual.

Picture is from when I was leaving...interesting day.

Got my committee members locked down!

Super exciting news. Legit.

Okay that's all.

Day Two Hundred and Seventy One.

Dropping Pennies On A Checkerboard.

Day 270- September 27, 2010 (Monday)

2010-09-27T13:26:00.001-05:00

So today I was stressed out all morning because of my research meeting.

Turns out it went just fine.

I had to recount all of my mL for my preps...but they were frozen...so I had to de-freeze them.

Piiiiiicture. Yeah.

Classes, library, dinner.

Got to have dinner with MARY!!! And 3 of her friends.

Good people. So that was a lot of fun!!

Haven't seen Mare in a long time.

More library. Late nights.

Still icing the knee.

Day Two Hundred and Seventy.

Half The Distance, Half The Motion.

Day 269- September 26, 2010 (Sunday)

2010-09-26T23:56:00.000-05:00

La. After recovering from last night it was time to buckle down and tackle some of the homework I have been putting off for the past week and a half.

Mostly...an Alien Ethnography...written from the HPER atmosphere. It was...interesting.

I am not a creative writer by any means...so it took several hours to bust this one out.

Pizza Rolls and crackers, then Chapter, Wendy's for dinner, and then to Club Mullins until midnight.

Now we are back at the apartment...it's 1am...and we are watching last week's episode of Bones.

Worth it.

The picture is from Chapter.

We drew cards to determine where we would sit for this week. Sat in suits. There were signs indicating the areas.

Kendall wore the 'hearts' sign.

And it was a cool picture. So here it is...

Also. The weather is FANTASTIC!!!!

It was in the 60s this afternoon, white sky, just...I almost cried this morning when I stepped onto the patio.

I have been waiting for Autumn my whole life.

Jerrika went to the library to pick up the first season of Degrassi...which is great news.

Pumped.

Day Two Hundred Sixty Nine.

"Please Address Your Comments To Me Through A Napkin."--Laura to a Sick Jerrika

Day 268- September 25, 2010 (Saturday)

2010-09-25T23:51:00.000-05:00

What a long, crazy day.

After about 4 solid hours of sleep, it was shower time and then a quick breakfast.

Mmmm then I wanted a loooong nap.

Instead Kelly and I headed over to the Testing Center and signed in.

Okay so then they were like 'alright go ahead to station 12 and get started.'

What?! Alright then.

So it was the slowest and fastest 3.5 hours of my life.

I needed more time on all of the sections, but I wanted the time to go by so it would be over.

Well...turns out preparation paid off!!

I got 150-250 points higher than I needed in order to be a 'strong candidate' for my top Grad School picks!!

I'm still gonna be stressed about acceptance and financial aid, but I think it is going to be fine.

Kelly also did incredibly well.

We celebrated by taking a nap.

Which led riiiiiight into the Arkansas vs Alabama game!!

At Arkansas. Let's do it! Started off strong scoring a touchdown in the first 50 seconds.

The entire first half was just incredible.

The score was 7-20 Arkansas! Whaaaaat?!

So we lead Number 1 Alabama for a while...then it all went downhill.

The second half was a mess...we ended up losing 24-20.

It was heartbreaking. I didn't get out of the test in time to actually be able to go to the game, but it was almost as sad watching it on the TV.

Then headed out with mis amigas to celebrate the end of GRE studying and to just unwind.

It was much needed and a grand time.

Day Two Hundred and Sixty Eight.

Inherently Incomplete.

Day 267- September 24, 2010 (Friday)

2010-09-24T23:43:00.000-05:00

The GRE is tomorrow. Tomorrow.

That should be the extent of my blog.

This is so not okay!!

I am not prepared!!

I realized I have been spending too much time on Verbal...trying to master that. Which is literally impossible.

Math is where it's at. Actual skills that can apply to several questions.

So I started studying that at like midnight.

I'm incredibly nervous. Gonna have to wing the writing portion.

I feel like I could stay up all night. I'm not tired...I don't want to sleep...I want to keep studying.

The picture is my lunch for the day.

I absolutely hate making my lunch at night. It consists of a PB&J sandwich, 9 baked chips, and a handful of grapes.

But for some reason I would rather endure an electric shock than make this lunch.

It sounds weird, but oh so true.

So I decided to switch it up a bit today.

Studied in Bell while the rest of the campus went to the Pep Rally.

We play #1 ALABAMA tomorrow! On our turf! The tide is going down!

I won't be able to make it because of the GRE, but I will be there in spirit and watching it on TV.

Get em HOGS!!!!

Day Two Hundred and Sixty Seven.

A Small Rock Holds Back A Great Wave.

Day 266- September 23, 2010 (Thursday)

2010-09-23T23:47:00.000-05:00

Lalala. Thursday is Thursday.

Apparently I was really stressed out today.

My pulse was too high to donate plasma at 9am.

3 points over. Sigh. So I got to sit down for 5 minutes and try to calm down.

So while I was sitting there trying to calm down, the only things I could think about were causing my heart to race even more.

I had 2 teacher meetings, so behind in classes, the GRE on Saturday, a bunch of stuff due right after the GRE, bills, etc. It was not good.

At that point I realized my pulse was not going to go down.

And it didn't. 103 for time two as well.

Oh well. So I came back to my apartment and watch 2 episodes of Oprah.

Time well spent I would say.

Class. Lunch. Meeting with first teacher.

So I totally screwed up my first test Scantron. I was shocked.

Luckily my professor is amazing and graded half of my test by hand.

I am so grateful. I now have a C. Which I am so pumped to bring up. Instead of 20 points into the F category...at which point I was apathetic about life.

Went to Bell to study for the GRE for several hours.

Not getting enough sleep. Still not studying enough.

Tomorrow the GRE will be tomorrow.

Oh no.

Tonight is also traditionally girls night. I couldn't go.

Which is sad. I feel like I haven't seen any of those three in a really long time.

Not a fan.

Day Two Hundred and Sixty Six.

Don't Waste Your Time On Words.